This is a poem I wrote back in 2018.
Woe, Woe is me
I am nothing without thee
My sinful nature, my DNA
I try to hide, but still display
I overexert to bury my hurt
How lowly I am, much lower than dirt
For even the earth, will obey the Lord
My deceitful heart is of its own accord
When I am in darkness I feel the sharpness
The pain from sin is never mark less
Save me Lord, to whom i pray
From my sinful nature, my DNA
There came a day, when I did pray
His presence came to my display
I couldn’t speak, I felt so weak
For it was God, whom I did seek
At first I felt a Godly fear
I’d never felt it oh so clear
I’d never felt a power so great
It caused my very soul to shake
Insignificant I felt
His Love then caused my heart to melt
His warmth inviting like the sun
After feeling cold and almost numb
His word I read for years and years
I prayed with joy and sometimes tears
I longed to hear from Him a word
Though sometimes silence was all I heard
In silence I held onto to faith
I read his word, to seek His face
My God, My God, I knew you were there
This moment answered all my prayers
As quick as It came
His presence left
Doubtless I can now attest
That God is there
He heard my prayer
His presence I can now declare
As time went by
My soul went dry
Depression taunted me
But why?
Awakened I became in Him
His truth instilled to me within
Back in the world without his reverence
I longed to back in His presence
I longed to be with God again
Though it’s His decision of how and when
Yet sorrow still crept in my soul
His presence left a Godly hole
The year that followed
Deeply swallowed
My life in loss
In pain, In sorrow
The biggest storms, filled with strife
Cut into me just like a knife
And in those days, I fell away
Ashamed I felt, the more I strayed
I numbed my pain In my despair
I sinned as though I didn’t care
Deep down I cried, I couldn’t hide
From God, The one that I defied
Still in sin
I prayed to Him
I read his word
My faith still in
This pain was more than I could bare
I failed you God
Are you still there?
Your presence in my memory
I can’t forget
I still believe
And I’m ashamed to even say
I wished I could forget God’s way
I can’t forget
You would not let
That’s why you came to me and set
Your light in me
I still believe
Forever Christ has set me free
I’ll turn away from what I’ve done
Forgive me Lord
My God I come
I’m not the one I was before
My God has changed me to my core
Please meet me where I am this day
I’m broken where I stand, I pray
Please cleanse me of my sin, my ways
Give me your nature, Your DNA
You’ve given me the gift of life
I lived through pain and lived in strife
I praise you Lord forever I say
For answering my prayers that day
I can’t forget
You would not let
That’s why you came to me and set
Your light in me
I still believe
Forever Christ has set me free